...we take our own chances, and pay our own dues...
So it's spring, and it's definitely time for a change. Like the seasons; changes from winter to spring... that's what's happening in my life right now. Me and Jenikins have been talking, and we've both decided it's time to make that change. We've had our thoughts, our dreams... we've had hopes and disappointments -- and I can only speak so much for her, but we've both come to the conclusion that we're sick and tired of being sick and tired. She doesn't have to go to school for 8+ years to become a doctor to help people... just like I don't have to go to film or photography school to make my films or take pictures.
Hollywood -- here we come. Of course, this will take time... but I was glad to recieve a text message from her earlier talking about getting outta Kansas City and heading for the City of Angels. And my hopes: the City of Angels and change.
Before I've wanted to move to get the fuck away from my problems... and even though I know and KNEW that you can't just move to get away from your problems; you've gotta face them head on and take care of what needs taking care of... and it is THEN that you can get the hell outta dodge. But it's finally sunk in -- take care of the bullshit that I've wanted so long to run from, and THEN pack up and head for the west coast for a fresh start... a fresh start instead of the same shit on my ass only with different scenery.
Hopefully, this time next year, me and my best friend will be in Hollywood, and we'll have begun working on a fresh start... a new life... a better life. We have sooo many more options out there.
That's all I care to share at this moment. I'm excited, though. I can't wait to work through all the crap that's weighed me down for so long, and get out to L.A. where I've wanted to be for sooooooo long.
That is all for now. Come back by later.
